I auditioned for acting school at 30. It didn't work. Everyone was 18. And even though I felt young, these guys and girls had that energy I never had at 18 anyhow. So I get it. But you've done well. You've won. We all win in the end Joe. Its what medal you're willing to wear. Gold, silver, bronze, or the just the 'I tried my hardest and won' medal. I wear that all the time. It feels great!